impact - f l i g h t

whenever i look at you, everything i want to say
runs into oceans of things i want to say and things
that i'll never say, and eventually-- they're all the same.

talking to you is like choking on air as the walls close in around me,
and i can't breathe 'cause even just your presence in this room
makes me want to fall apart and fall together all at the same time.

i stare, and i stare and i keep looking until i think
that you've caught me, and i finally feel that little
flicker of hope, building up in my chest like a bird
trapped in a suffocating cage, trying to claw its way
out of my ribs and into your heart.

but you don't look my way and a little part of me sinks back
into her dejection, trying to figure out how to deal with this
blatant rejection of friendship and closeness and someone to
talk to.

if i don't take the leap you never will, but you have to-
all of my attempts are just more time that i have to kill.

i know it isn't true but when i look at you, you're the
life and I'm just a passenger taking a peek into the
true light that resides within, inside.

and even though we don't talk like old friends who haven't
spoken in a while, or new friends bursting with useless things
to say, or lovers that grew old and argue every day....

i see you.

and when you look back with that distant look in your eyes,
it's like you're a stranger I'm only seeing for the first time
in my life, and i know nothing about you so i have to observe.

every time you look away you become another person for me
to learn from.

and i know that you'll never look me directly in the eyes,
because you're scared and paranoid, under a stare
from a girl who doesn't matter.

but that's your disguise.